Amanda

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[Mar. 16th, 2003|01:08 pm]

[	mood	\|	awake	]
[	music	\|	Buried Myself Alive by The Used	]

wow. i havent written here in awhile. i moved over to blurty. its better. im just over here checkin out my old entries.. my new one is: www.blurty.com~amandatory

[Jan. 18th, 2003|07:19 am]

[	mood	\|	happy	]
[	music	\|	Korn - Alone I Break	]

Damn dude i think im the only 15 year old up at this hour! im not really surprised im up bc i mean i fell asleep at like 9:00 last night.. alright where to begin! well lets start with trae is a hypocrite that went off on my best friend for NO reason. see trae told this lie to julie about getting her sumthing and then he told me about it. well kevin julies bf would not shut up so finally i was like it was a LIE and then kevin went and told julie and harmony came while kevin was tellin julie and harmi was like yea and then he said shit now i have to get her sumthin! well sumhow it got back to trae and he just fuckin went off on her and i was like dude thats wrong! i told him that kevin, julie, and harmi dont care about that stupid lie. and hes all yea well julies mom does and idk i guess hes afraid to get arrested or sumthing? well i asked julie and she said her mom is mad that he told her to fuck off and that he keeps lieing to her. i got matt to tell that to trae and hes all i dont care wut that bitch says.. so there u go trae being a hypocrite! Also chelsea doesnt kno when to quit.. idk if i mentioned this but there is this guy i like named james but evry1 calls him jimmy bc there are 2 James' so anyways. ive heard from james, jordana, chelsea, and mike that jimmy likes me. but damn is he movin slow! so i made up this lion, prey metaphor and i told chels about it and she fuckin told jimmy! jimmy came up to me and was like roar do that bc ur a lion and im the prey! now dont get me wrong he said it hilariously funny but im still sorta mad at chelsea. sara, stephanie, and harmony and i had a serious talk yesterday during p.e. about wut we would do if chelsea got jumped, well james came up where we were and was like so when are we gunna jump chelsea!?!?! it was soo funny bc he was soo excited!!! me, harm, and james all went down to where jimmy was sitting and just hung out. well i was wearing long sleeves, and jimmy told me to roll them up and harmi started to but i looked at her and she said never mind and rolled them back down. jimmy started talking about this ex gf he has that use to wear a bunch of things on her arms (like i do) and one day she moved them and he saw that she wore them to cover up the fact she slits her wrist (like me) and that he was really mad. then james told jimmy that he always picks the crazy chicks and jimmy said i kno but they always seem like such nice girls (like me). me and harmony were like holy fuck bc they described me without even knowing it, so now im like afraid for jimmy to find out but idk bc idk its weird! well james and jimmy got harm and i to hang out with them at lunch in this "secret place" jimmy was jumping off the stairs into james's arms and they both fell it was fuckin hilarious!!! me and harmony had so much fun, when we turned to leave james was like fine u lil whore! but he was kidding well we walked out and james chased after us and said sumthing so we were like wut? and turned around and fallowed him back to the "secret place" but we werent in it yet and jimmy yelled i like talking to u. and then james started making stuff up i dont rememember wut he said but it was fuckin hilarious. jordana likes jimmy but jimmy doesnt like her so we spent that rest of the lunch period makeing fun of her. and then jimmys like i dare sumone to walk past jordana with there boobs and there butt out (bc thats how she walks) i had so much fun hanging with them, i actually think it was better without chelsea!

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[Jan. 12th, 2003|04:41 pm]

[	mood	\|	annoyed	]
[	music	\|	The Used - The Taste Of Ink	]

well i have a bone to pick with mtv!!!! i mean why the hell do they have to take good bands and put them on there channel!?! i mean The Used they are dewing perfectly fine on Much Music and Mtv2 so why the hell do they need to be on TRL!? i mean lil teeny boppers that love justin timberfag are gunna be obessed with the used and turn them into a teeny bopper band i can already see it happening. and just bc u have heard hmm maybe 4 songs by good charlotte and u kno all the words wut makes u think ur punk!?!?! IT PISSES ME OFF! i mean these lil girls who listen to avril lavigne are all the sudden die hard punks. now dont get me wrong i LOVE avril lavigne i think shes tyte but you still get the point. so anyways last night trae was at his mamas so he stopped by around 5ish so yea we hung out and it was nice bc wewere both in REALLY good moods which i think is a first, but since im still grounded i couldnt go anywhere and i barelly got my mama to let me on the comp but my times up in like 3 min. so anyways traes all can i kiss u? and i was like WHY? i said it just like that too it was pretty funny. but yea he kicked a picture out of the frame in front of rite aid and totally blamed it on me i was lyk i dont think so bitch! so yea last night i was up watchin The Mothman Prophecies which is like the trippiest movie! and it was like 11:00 and evry1 was asleep so it was just me and the tv well even tho i had already seen it i was still got freaked so i got up and shut all the blindes cuz im a loser lyk that! but anyways i was channel searching and i found none other than ......drum roll please....... FOOTLOOSE!!!!! LMFAO so of course i watched it! i mean kevin bacon dancing around and working out, who wouldnt love it!? so i watched that while i waited for avril lavignes performance on SNL but yea.. yesterday i was talkin to my sissa on the phone and we were watchin the lion king together but only the parts where they sing bc were stoopid lyk that. we only watched hakuna matata (sp?) and the ive got a lovely bunch of coconuts deedly dee there they are standing in a row bumb bumb bumb big ones small ones sum the size of ur head.. and we watched the "wut do u want me to do dress in drag and do the hula?" i have that WHOLE song memorized and we watched it like 29 tymes no joke. but yea my tyme is up so ill catcha later! * MWHAZ *

[Jan. 11th, 2003|09:30 am]

[	mood	\|	cheerful	]
[	music	\|	Tatu - All the things she said	]

damn i havent written for a long ass time! i have been grounded from just about everything bc i was makeing screwdrivers and bc i slit my wrist. last night i went thru all my photo albums and i just started crying maybe im getting my period or something, but i missed erica soo flippin bad haha i wrote a song about her and it can only go to her but it mentions how she stole my pants LMFAO!! but yea and then i read alllll the notes she had written me iun the 8th grade and there was this one that said "turn over in case of a fire" so i turned it over and it said " i said in case of a fire u stupid bitch" LMFAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thats erica for ya but anyways im going to go see everybody Jan 31st til Feb 2 thats a short amount of time but hey its better than not going at all!!!!!!! but yea im going to the high school on friday so i can see allie and em and christa and chacey and randy and chris and hannah and evrybody! bc i kno if i dont then ill only get to see er bree and travis! but okay then! so this guy i like james likes me and im like SCORE!!!!!! LMFAO yesterday i was dressed like a wanksta lol karina! but anywho i really dont kno wut else to say so ill prolly right more in about uh 2 weeks!

[Jan. 1st, 2003|06:46 pm]

[	mood	\|	angry	]
[	music	\|	bowling for soup ~ girl all the bad guys want	]

Well once again i am angry at the world, wut else is new? i had a shitty new years, its just shitty enough to bore u with. i baby-sat a cat and my dog, and they dont like each other so it was a bitch keeping them in separate rooms. i worked on my website, talked on the phone and watched movies.. isnt that just all great and peachy. erica could have come my dad said, of course he told me this the day b4 new years and its kind of hard to make long distance plans the day before an event. i dont kno if i wanted her to come anyways i mean yea i love her to death its just that right now im really disappointed in myself. i have been locking myself up lately. im not sure why, everyone and everything is pissing me off somehow. i mean u could be a total stranger and say hi to me and ill glare at you. im feeling sum pretty odd stuff. like right now i feel bad for being such a brat but i mean still if u say hi to me ill glare at u. im wearing headphones instead of listening thru the speakers just so i can drown out the voices of the people in my house. i want to go in the room and watch the movie but i dont want to have to talk to them. im feeling very anit-social, but yet im going to call erica here in a few minutes. thats what i dont understand about myself, i feel 2 things at once, im not sure why! i feel sad but i am soo angry!!! these are the feelings of a crazy person.

[Dec. 30th, 2002|09:37 pm]

[	mood	\|	loved	]
[	music	\|	Good Charlotte - Hold On	]

I FEEL SO LOVED!!!!!
ImSkYlEr69: i love you bye
he hasnt said that in like a month. earlier today i was so depressed and angry and annoyed and stressed and every other emotion u could possibly think of and i just idk i felt i had no way out listening to hold on by good charlotte and watching titanic actually helped me a lil but it wasnt untill i talked to trae just now did my mood really lift, he wrote a song about me and i seriously wanted to cry hes like idk this is gunna sound so gay but its like hes my angel and when things get rough hes always there to pull me out and help me through and idk even if hes not with me physically hes still with me mentally. i know i complain about him alot but its just bc i dont want our friendship to fall apart, or if i bitch about sumthing hes done its bc i am worried about him. i just think that if our friendship ever did fall apart i would just mentally and physically collapse bc he is the only thing keeping me stable.

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[Dec. 30th, 2002|11:15 am]

[	mood	\|	energetic	]
[	music	\|	The Used - The Taste Of Ink, well now its karinas voice	]

Hey.. dude i am soo freakin lyk, i dont even know!! but saturday i saw trae meh and him went to vons i was really mellow, but i had been lyk it all day and i dont know apparently trae thought i was mad at him or sumshyt bc then yesterday we got in a fight bc he thought i was mad at him. it was really freakin dumb we fyte ovr the stupidest shyt imaginable i am not even kidding!!!!!!! well my mom just told me the story about how my cousin almost died from alcohol apparently his alcohol level was at like .4 or sumthin like that so he went to the hospital to have his his stomach pump.. now that makes me not want to drink and the same with heidis position but i kno im gunna get drunk one of these days!! u can lead a horse to water but u cant make it drink.. i dont think thats wut i ment.. LMFAO.. but YEA last night i was downstairs till 11:30 kiqin it with my bro and we were talkin to trae and john and idk the things he was saying were just hilarious i was on the floor laughing. when i went upstairs i watch.......drumroll please..... TITANIC!!! i finally bought it 5 yrs later.. LMFAO!!!!
oh and i bought when in rome and to my surprise its actually pretty good! idk i hate mary kate and ashley but i cant stop buying there movies its like an addiction!!!!!! once u buy one u are hooked for lyf kind of like rice crispy treats ... LMFAO lol karina! but yea i dont have anything else to say soooo lata my sista from anotha mista!!

[Dec. 28th, 2002|08:34 am]

[	mood	\|	groggy	]
[	music	\|	Jennifer Lopez Ft Ll Cool J - All I Have	]

I wrote this last night when i was pissed off:
Why Are We Friends?
Why are we friends?
Why do we keep hanging on?
Whats the point
Everyday is the same
We fight and call each other names
So answer me this
Why are we friends?
I say your my best
But with all this fighting
I don't know why
Most of these days
I want to break down and cry
What are we holding on for?
Someone needs to leave
Needs to walk out that door
You know everything
Everything I've been through
But you still hurt me
With all the things you do
You said it to me
So now I'm saying it to you
Sometimes I don't know why I am your friend
Maybe we were brought to each other
To help each outher through
If I lost you, what would I do?
But every day it's the same
We fight and call each other names
So answer me this
Why are we friends?
What's the point of our lives together
All we do is hurt each other
I don't want to call it quits
I just want these games to end
We've been through so much
With icey stares cold to the touch
But still we hang on
Keep our friendship alive
I know we care deep down inside
But still you make me so mad
And you make me so sad
You messed me up
With all these emotions you've had
But tonight it's about me
And the pain I've gone through
To keep you happy
To keep us true
I know this is rude
And you will get mad
But your actions tonight
Have made me feel bad
I'm writing this out of hurt and pain
But tomorrow
I might now feel the same
With this end note
You should know
That I still care
And don't want you to leave
But the hurt inside begins to increase
I've held my tongue for so long
Because I don't want you ever mad at me
But this time it's different
You crossed the line
But tomorrow
I might not feel the same
So answer me this
Are we still friends?

[Dec. 27th, 2002|08:38 pm]

[	mood	\|	pissed off	]
[	music	\|	Listening to karina talk	]

I AM SOO FUCKING PISSED RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!! if u didnt kno i have had bad experiences with alcohol, one of my cousins and one of my friends have almost died from it. all of my friends know this. but one was a fucking dumass and decided to call me while he was drunk! i am so fucking pissed off right now i could cry, now ill prolly spent the rest of the night freaking out bc now im all afraid hes gunna die. if he hadnt of called id be happier he knos i am afraid of people close to me drinking but why he called i dont kno! sum chik in the backround sayd to him hey u are in my house smoking my ciggarettes that just did it for me i hung up the phone. god if he knew how bad he pissed me off i never want to hear from any of my friends while they are drunk EVER!!!!!!! dont even joke about alcohol around me

[Dec. 27th, 2002|10:16 am]

[	mood	\|	blank	]
[	music	\|	Good Charlotte, the whole cd	]

i had a good xmas i got a lot of stuff i really wanted so its all good. i went to church and everything, robert (my brother) made jokes the WHOLE time it was hilarious but i did actually listen to the sermon, sort of. yesterday i was forced in to FFA (forced family activities) and we went to disneyland i didnt want to go AT ALL but my uncle scott told me that 25 years from now everyone will sit around and talk about the trip to disneyland but i wont be in the convo bc i didnt go. and i sat there thinking 25 years from now im not gunna remember this stupid trip! well they made me go. the nightmare b4 xmas thing was AWESOME it was soo much like the movie it was freakish, and then of course we rode the tea cups the only good ride there besides indiana jones. we were forced onto the pirates of the carrabeen, carabein (I DONT KNO HOW TO SPELL IT) but that is the stupidst thing and ryan and robert were cracking jokes the whole time it was hilarious. today they went to hollywood but robert curt and i got out of it thankfully! and right now im trying to figure out how to do the laundry! i need to take a shyt so brb. but yea idk wut else to say ill prolly write later today and be in tears or sumthing so just wait for it!!

Wondering

[Dec. 23rd, 2002|07:25 pm]

[	mood	\|	blah	]
[	music	\|	TLC - Waterfalls	]

I was sitting around and i was thinking. Why does everyone have to be labeled? I mean there are jock, preps, punks, goths, dorks, nerds,.. etc. If you are very athletic but you only wear black, are you a 'jock' or a 'goth'? If you are very brainy and dress from American Eagle, are you a 'prep' or a 'nerd'? Everybody has a label, if you aren't one you are the other. Why cant the gothic people be athletic and why cant the branics be preppy? I think it's stupid to label everyone, you are what you are why does it have to have a name? Why cant somebody dress like a 'punk' and listen to Dreamstreet? Why is that so wrong? THAT is who they are, so are they a 'punk' because of the clothes or a 'dork' because of Dreamstreet? You cant put a label on who you are. All this time I was trying to figure out what catagory I wanted to be put in when all I had to do was be myself. Right now I'm wearing spiked bracelets and wristbands and I'm listening to Dreamstreet. So what am I? I am myself, the only catagory I can be placed in is the original catagory. How many 'punks' will admitt they listen to Dreamstreet? How many 'preps' will admit they listen to Slipknot? None, because they dont want to be put in the 'dork' catagory even though they're already there for not being orginal. So many people fallow the trends so they can be considered 'cool' but what are they really following? They are following all the other people that want to be considered 'cool', so in reality nobody is being 'cool' everyone is fallowing eachother instead of standing out and being themselves.

[Dec. 23rd, 2002|05:58 pm]

[	mood	\|	blank	]
[	music	\|	The Used - the taste of ink	]

i got out of going to santa barbra today thank the lord. harmony wanted me to go to the mall with her and i was like alright i got nuthin better to do. so we left around like 12:30 ish or sumthing and we shopped for awhile i got this tight ass bracelet from calires its all spikey. harmony got me sum cool shyt from hot topic for xmas so now i owe her a xmas present thats shes not gunna get untill like july bc im making katie a scrap book so thats going to take all my money. so around 4ish we were sitting on the fountain waiting for melody and outta kno where trae pops up, my heart skipped a beat. its so weird whenever i see him and im not expecting it, it feels like my hearts gunna jump out of my chest. yea so he was there with kevin and keith, keith looks like harry potter and kevin scares harmony. so we walked down to the movies and we saw steph and chelsea so it was all great and peachy! at 4:30 we left and now im here writing this and eating chips and watch waynes world 2. last night i watched the breakfast club which i hafta say is one of the best movies. well wut pissed me off about it was at the end molly ringwald took this chik dressed in black to the bathroom and put make up on her and made her pretty, and then the coach from the mighty ducks who also played one of the guys in the outsiders thinks the girl dressed in black is all the sudden SOO pretty and they started kissing. i was like wut the fuck! that shows how shallow people are, she wasnt pretty when she was dressed in black but when u add a hairstyle new clothes and makeup shes an entirely different person!!!!! but it was still really good

The good ol days!

[Dec. 22nd, 2002|07:16 pm]

[	mood	\|	giggly	]
[	music	\|	Rooney - Losing all control	]

im sitting here talkin to my good ol buddy katie remembering all the good times
im maemae812, shes angelcandy018
Angelcandy018: im hoping 1 is a guitar
MaeMae812: thats tight
MaeMae812: wut kind?
MaeMae812: electric, bass, acoustic?
Angelcandy018: acoustic, for my first one
Angelcandy018: then hopefully an electric in the future
MaeMae812: thats tight
MaeMae812: i want a bass
MaeMae812: we should start a band!
Angelcandy018: haha me and tina want to
MaeMae812: that would be tight
MaeMae812: didnt heidi have a band way back when..?
Angelcandy018: u me heidi and jess k-o
Angelcandy018: remember?
Angelcandy018: it was called stop
Angelcandy018: for our initials
MaeMae812: omg!!!!!
MaeMae812: i totally remember that
Angelcandy018: lol
MaeMae812: and jessica made a song about which star to follow
Angelcandy018: HAHAHAHAH
MaeMae812: i still have that somewhere!
Angelcandy018: YA
MaeMae812: lol
Angelcandy018: remember..."you guys dont kno wut its like to be an only child"
MaeMae812: LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MaeMae812: she opened all my presents
Angelcandy018: haha that was the highlight of the party
MaeMae812: oh yea
Angelcandy018: or when we put heidis undergarmets in the freezer
MaeMae812: lol
Angelcandy018: that was comedy
MaeMae812: omg she was soo pissed
Angelcandy018: i kno
MaeMae812: i wonder if she remembers that
MaeMae812: how the hell do u remember all this!?
Angelcandy018: idk dude but i do remember that nite better than anyone elses
Angelcandy018: i mean any other one
Angelcandy018: i remember u got an info book and it said star sign: and heidi told me you were supposed to write your sig as if u were a star
MaeMae812: LOL
MaeMae812: NO
MaeMae812: i sayd that!
Angelcandy018: haha
MaeMae812: and blamed it on her!
Angelcandy018: i thought maybe it was u but i wasnt sure
Angelcandy018: lol
MaeMae812: omg
MaeMae812: crazy kids bein stupid these days
Angelcandy018: lol
Angelcandy018: good times
MaeMae812: yes maam

immature2

[Dec. 21st, 2002|10:05 pm]

[	mood	\|	aggravated	]
[	music	\|	Green Day - Time of your life	]

well lets update this fight. i log back in and explain to briana in a calm manner why i went off on her before. and ill be damned a new fight started!
Amanda: hun listen
hollywoodstar2006: NO YOU LISTEN
Amanda: i am not the one carrying on about this
hollywoodstar2006: HUN
Amanda: you are
Amanda: and i am done with this fight
hollywoodstar2006: YOU ARE
Amanda: so stop talkin
hollywoodstar2006: i'm not talking, I'm typing
hollywoodstar2006: so there

the whole im not talking im typeing really gets to me, i dont kno if its the immaturity or if its the lack of originality. instead of trying to explain myself more i just stopped talking. and i say again ~ people like that give girls a bad name.. and they say we mature faster..

Immature

[Dec. 21st, 2002|09:45 pm]

[	mood	\|	annoyed	]
[	music	\|	The Used- the taste of ink	]

i just got in the stupidest fight with erica for going off on briana.. i cant even begin to tell you how immature this fight was. first off i didnt start this fight between me and erica, i was just fine with how things ended between me and briana. when i asked how the movie went erica took the opportunity to yell at me, which i might add was incredibly stupid considering it was none of her business.. anyways while she defended briana i tried to get out, i didnt want to be in some stupid fight about me yellin at briana. after a few minutes of yellin i said okay im done goodbye, and she says haha i win.. now wut the hell is up with that!? haha i win? is she trying to be a 3rd grader or does it come naturally? so then somehow i got sucked back into the fight only it was a new fight about how she "won" i quickly realized just how ridiculous this new fight was and quickly tried to get out while she said she was the "best" and while i am trying to get out she calls me a chicken.. wow.. that really hurt, it went right through my heart.. when i log back in i discovered this message "cheating on your boyfriend and all that shit!" now what that had to do with anything i dont kno, and im not even going to bother to ask bc i kno we will start another incredibly stupid fight.. its people like that that give girls a bad name!!!!

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[Dec. 21st, 2002|03:40 pm]

[	mood	\|	nauseated	]
[	music	\|	Riot Girl - By AMANDA! (im singin it)	]

i took a quiz today and it sayd i was an asshole hmm.. i thought i was more of a bitch really. today i FINALLY went off on briana. er called me bc she wants to go to the movies with briana scott and billy but she was afraid it was cheating on travis and i was like hun its only cheating if u and scott hook up! well then briana IM's me
Bri: OMG I LYK CANT BELIEVE IM GOING WITH BILLY OMG THIS IS LYK SO EXCITING!
ME: (gag) yea i kno
Bri: blah blah blah BILLY
Me: i dont fuckin care all u talk about is billy, u and billy allison and billy i dont fuckin care anymore!
Bri: all u talk about is trae so dont lay that shit on me bitch
Me:i kno im a bitch and did i say anything about him today NO u brought him up not me, and besides we are talkin about u here
Bri: WHATEVER bye
Me: thats right be a coward run away briana run away

well by then i felt really good bc i got to release all my anger so im feeling rather jolly i really needed to go off on briana her preppy boi crazy attitude was really starting to bug me it was also really good timing bc mom was yellin at me and i didnt wanna go off on her bc amanda doesnt feel like gettin slapped but yea i gtg late dude!

Selfish

[Dec. 20th, 2002|06:19 pm]

[	mood	\|	rejected	]
[	music	\|	Good Charlotte ~ Bloody Valentine	]

well wut did i tell ya? i new id be sad b4 the days over. i mean i am going to sound SO selfish right now but i dont give a shyt bc its how i feel. i hate how i am soo sympathetic to people and caring and help them with there problems, i mean half the time all i am to them is Dr Nada. friends come to me for advice and shyt and i give it, but then certain ones only talk about themselves, i mean dew yew onli care about wuts going on in yewr life? are you that much more important than me? when i write people things like poems and stuff i dont care how bad they suck or how good they might be u should at least tell me that they are well written to make me feel good, i mean dont be like thanx and have that be it, it hurts my feelings. when people write me things i do my best to make them feel good even if they are terrible! (trae this isnt to you) when i have crisis one friend i kno doesnt care all she'll talk about is herself and her problems and i hate it i mean i dont need to hear ur stupid boy shyt all the time if boys are that big of a problem become a lesbian! i am so fawkin sick of hearing all these boi problems now if they are big lyk chels and steph and er and sumtymes katie then OK but if they are stupid lil shit about fighting over one when he doesnt like either of you then dont fawkin tell me! i mean its that easy, and dont expect me to drop everything and help u when i kno u wont do the same to me.. i feel like i am giving to much of myself and recieveing so lil in return. im not trying to be selfish even tho i sound it, i just want people to care about wuts going and ask me instead of me having to tell.. dont just take and take and take u have to give me a lil

HAPPY!

[Dec. 20th, 2002|03:31 pm]

[	mood	\|	cold	]
[	music	\|	DreamStreet ~ With All My Heart	]

i am in the best mood of my life right now! i dont kno if its the mexican sucker or the fact i am freezing my tooshie off! i ditched spanish today for mr sanns (sp?) room to watch the emperors new groove! it was oh so exciting. and then gym was fun i hung out with chels, james and james and they are both REALLY CUTE! 5&6 period we had parties and i was grabbing everybody ass (guys only) i stabbed felipe with a laffy taffy and he spilled his drink, it was HILARIOUS! in mr b's room me and karina were jamming to that mariah carey song make it thru the rain while cromwell danced with alex and cindy it was funny. julieanne was stupid and she freakin brought her dog to skewl and hid it in her backpack it couldnt have been more than 5 weeks old, shes adorable! (the dog not julie)yea so right now im listening to dreamstreet and i feel lyk such a loser but im sorry it is a cute song! my brothers out with his gf right now i am soo happy that he finally got one! chelsea is about to get with ryun and today i grabbed his ass it scared the shit out of him. and omg this girl is going out with this guy but he already got sumone pregnet that we kno but she doesnt care and i think its stupid if my boyfriend got some one pregnet id dump his ass i mean i dont want to go out with a daddy! i bet ur wondering wut happened with karina and her big nose fella.. well hes going out with chantel so were all pretty pissed at him for leading karina on.. im sure my extremely good mood will end in about an hour so look towards having a depressing entry later! im owt lyk ::woah:: lytz!!!!!! okay i stole that from abbie but w/e

[Dec. 19th, 2002|04:02 pm]

[	mood	\|	pissed off	]
[	music	\|	Nirvana - Smells like teen spirit	]

since when am i not allowed to have an opinon!?!? i am soo sorry that people are getting so offended about wut i write about them in here i mean its MY feelings and how I feel, not how YOU feel about the things YOU do to ME! UNDERSTAND!?! and when i fuckin apologize dont tell me to fuck off or sumshyt bc i could prolly have sayd fuck u and get over urself but no i apologized which is a big thing for me! i am trying soo hard to stay happy i had a good afternoon but i cant say anything about the rest of the day. maybe i would have been happier if some people that i cared about hadnt got all pissed off at me bc i wrote something about them! ive seriously have almost lost it, even tho me and the person are cool now im seriously soo pissed off right now i am on the verge of tears oh wow look at thats sumbody just got pissed bc i wouldnt tell them who got pissed off after reading this, SEE WHAT I MEAN!!!!!! i cannot keep everybody happy at the same time and omg i fuckin wanna break sumthing right now!!!!!! so lets recap, i am pissed off bc people got pissed at me for expressing myself, and i am pissed off bc sumone got pissed at me bc i wouldnt tell them who got offended.. wow wut a fucked up mess! im sure the people who got me pissed off kno who they are soo the first one who got mad bc of wut i wrote about him i am cool with u so dont get all mad again for this entry as for the other one i dont kno yet just fuckin leave me alone and tell ur bros to do the same!